I have finally resigned myself to the f
act 
that my mother wasn’t a cook. She could till a plot of ground and work the 
garden until dark all summer. She scrubbed every wall in the house, 
washed and ironed into the wee hours after working a shift on her feet at the 
grocery store. But she only learned from her own mother that the kitchen was 
hot, that canning season seemed endless and there were only so many pigs feet 
she could gnaw on. Its no wonder she was glad to go to work.
No cookies 
were baked in our oven but occasionally a Jiffy cake mix appeared and the three 
of us would scrap over the crumbs like a pack of hungry mongrels. Once a year at 
Christmas time this German workhorse of a woman would make one unfailing delight 
for us.
After much hinting and playful cajoling from the man whose left 
hook could bring her to her knees, she gave in. I was alerted by the sound of 
the small electric mixer cord swinging against the cabinet door as she retrieved 
it from its dusty box. Bowls, pans, sugar spilling, syrup measured and soon the 
familiar rise of the acrid exhaust from the mixer’s motor that had just been 
rudely awakened from its year-long slumber. No wooden spoons in our kitchen, 
just the scraping of stainless steel on stainless steel. Droning became more 
labored and then stopped.
Into a pan lay the white molten ooze which she 
quickly smoothed out, then cut into squares and dusted with powdered sugar. It 
was a miracle to behold—science and strong biceps had produced a pan of homemade 
marshmallows. Only once did my father intrude on the process by insisting that 
anise flavoring be added in remembrance of his dear departed Italian mama who 
had never made this delicacy in her life. Powdered sugar everywhere, dusting my 
father’s mustache, on my pajamas and a thin layer along the stove top my mother 
must have remembered herself as a little girl standing on the kindling box in 
her mother’s steamy kitchen waiting patiently for her piece of marshmallow to 
appear. Then it would be Christmas for her too.
